Death

Death what an ugly horrible terrifying word some people may say they are not afraid of death but actually we all are afraid of death, the idea that u may not be able to see the person that u r used to see your whole life it's a horrifying idea and experience the fact that u can never forget which is not easy thing when u r surrounded by things that makes u remember this person wherever u go is not easy so death is an awful fact the thing is why were we created and then killed this cycle that we didn't make our decision whether when we will born or when will we die it makes me question the reason of our whole existence here ? Why were we created then killed I don't get it ? This life is full of joy and happiness yeah I admit but it's also full of sorrow and bad events everywhere and yeah I knw that most of these events are created by us human but still what if I don't want to be here anymore and still I'm afraid of death of what will come next yeah I hate life and afraid of death which also indicates how coward I'm I'm afraid of life as I don't want death to take anyone that I love as I won't be able to experience it again so I want to die just before anyone to not experience this horrible thing again on the other hand I'm afraid of death I think that it's the fear of the unknown I don't knw what will come next will I be tortured in my grave? Would I go to hell or heaven? Or maybe it can be good experience where I get the chance to see the ppl that I lost in real life I don't knw but even this I will miss ppl who r still alive so I think that this us life where we live in the unknown we don't knw why we came and when will we go again.